Overview

I figure that the best way to start is to explain where I am right now. I have been dating my boyfriend, TK, for three years. He's...sweet (when he wants to be), caring (when he wants to be), and generally loves attention. When I first met him, in 10th grade, he was all that I could think about day and night. I have had crushes before, but I was nuts about him. We started to hang out and eventually he asked me out, and like most relationships we have had our ups and down. Myself? The best way to describe me is shy, I don't have very many friends and often wonder if I have a social anxiety disorder. I think I am average looking, nothing too special, and I find that I often am a neutral in just about everything. TK and I seem to work out, we like a lot of the same things which allows us to have fun together but have enough differences to keep each other entertained. The worst moment in our relationship happened a year into it. He broke up with me, and even though it was only for four days, it was heartbreaking. I cried, a lot, tried to talk to him (didn't help and I don't recommend it), and was depressed. The reason he broke up with me I'm still shady on. He told me that it was because he didn't want to settle down so quick, another time because he wanted to flirt, and once more because of another girl (the last one more my idea). The reason for the last one was because of this one girl, Glade, who he started to get close to. He wanted to walk her to class, started to hug her, talk to her about our relationship, and what most people consider flirt. I tried not to be jealous (I'm a horribly jealous person) and just kinda got sadder and sadder until I asked him about he. He said it was nothing he was just making a friend, but then told my best friend that he thought he had a crush on her. When we got back together I was still very hurt, I think that I still am. It really affects a relationship. I worry about him doing it again, and soon.